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I’ve been trying to summon the will to write a post summarising the events of my five month blogging hiatus but the longer you leave these things, the harder and more daunting they become. So, I’ve decided to save myself the hassle and not bother. It has been a bit of a struggle over the last few months but most of that isn’t really suitable for the public domain anyway. Suffice to say, I’m okay, nobody’s died (unless you want to count my laptop) and the sky hasn’t fallen in just yet. I’m also still rubbish at knitting.

I’d say that normal service will be resumed from now on but I’ve never really stuck to a schedule when it comes to writing. I still have quite a few issues with the layout that need fixing, one of which will require playing Russian Roulette with WooThemes support; I say that because in the past, I’ve either had a really friendly, helpful response or an incredibly snotty, disinterested one – there doesn’t seem to be any middle ground there. If they manage to fix this for me, then all will be forgiven; which would be nice as if Project Super Secret Squirrel goes to plan, I’ll be needing their commerce software too. Oh and no, not telling. Not yet.

My main priority at the moment is a project for somebody else, which is frustratingly close to completion but requires the weather to cool down a little first as chinchillas do not appreciate a computer belching hot air out in the middle of a heatwave and impressive though my little Android tablet is, I don’t think it’s up to running Photoshop. I’d be stunned if it could do Paint.

So yeah, just wanted to say that I’m drawing a line under the past as far as blogging goes (you are of course welcome to ask me if you’re curious about anything) and hopefully, it’ll lift some of the writing anxieties. No promises though.

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Playing with the layout (yes, I remembered I have a blog!) Things are likely going to look ugly and wonky for a while so umm, don’t sue me if the internet breaks, k?

ETA: Bah, this layout’s base theme was updated recently* which in the process broke a lot of things which I haven’t yet worked out how to unbreak. Have posts in the queue but can’t bring myself to hit publish while things are untidy here. Bear with me folks!

*Recently being a relative term here.

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Apologies for not showing any signs of life for the past week, I’ve had to deal with the almost never-ending delights of filling in renewal forms for my disability benefits. The irony being that I’ve spent a lot of the time since they landed on the doormat being too ill to do them but if I don’t, it’s an automatic denial. Luckily, I still had the forms from last year saved on my computer so had those for reference but still, they are such a massive drain on both my mental and physical well-being that I just haven’t had the energy to write anything else. I’m hoping that the forms will just go in, be checked against my case history and the status quo ante will be maintained but it’s far more likely I’ll get hauled in for yet another pointless and stressful medical, as I do every sodding year. There’s also a chance they could just tell me to sod off, either on receipt of my paperwork or after the inevitable poking and prodding from some jumped up desk jockey with a god complex. Which will mean a period of no money and an appeal or even tribunal to look forward to (again). So yeah, no pressure.

However, being at the mercy of The Powers That Be, I’ll need to distract myself from everything or I’ll just curl up into a ball and sob whenever I see a brown envelope arrive. I’ll probably do that anyway but I’m hoping that I’ll be able to catch up on comments, take pictures of stuff and deal with the queue of half-finished blog entries I’ve got on my dashboard. This will likely happen at stupid o’clock as I’ll be too worked up to sleep but at least it’ll get done. Panic driven productivity for the win.

Anywho, sorry if anyone’s felt ignored or unloved, I promise you I neglect everything equally and it’s nothing personal.

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Last week, Nails Inc had another of their now famous lucky dip sales where you get six bottles of polish for £15 plus delivery. As they usually retail for between £5 and £11, I thought this was an unmissable bargain, especially after Nails Inc promised there’d be no duplicates (I hear that was something of a problem with the last round of lucky dip bags) and bought three of them, which got me free delivery too. Yay.

My order arrived this morning and I was really pleased with my loot, lots of colours that I wouldn’t ordinarily have tried but are really quite lovely in person.

(Clicking any of the photos will take you to Flickr, where they can be embiggened)

Nails Inc nail polish bottles

(L – R) Grafton Street, Hoxton Crackle, Heathrow, Hampstead Gardens.

I’m not sure whether the mustardy Hampstead Gardens is for me but the sticker on the lid assures me it’s a “trend shade” so I guess owning it means I’m down with the kids or something?

The rest of the photos are under the cut )

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It’s taken me eighteen days to start to crawl back out of the post-Boy visiting funk, which is a new (crappy) record but I’m slowly starting to get there. It’s not something I talk about much, as I don’t want to make him feel guilty or give the impression that he’s some kind of life ruiner but as has become abundantly clear to most people by now, I hate things changing. Changing for good, I can deal with (which is why I only have a few days of “Argh, why is that suitcase there? Why can’t I find any of my things? ARGH!” before I calm down) but a change for the bad, which going from having the person you love in constant hugging distance to being three hundred miles away most certainly is, yeah… they really throw me.  Also not helping was that this visit came in a period that was turbulent anyway and accompanied by a massive lurg flare-up, plus it being dark and miserable outside even during daylight hours just gave me that gentle nudge into blanket dwelling despair. It is starting to wear off though and some of the other bad changes have turned into opportunities for good things that might not have happened, at least not as quickly as they seem to be, otherwise. You’ll have to accept my apologies for being slightly cryptic there, I just feel like if I put into words that X is going to happen and will lead to Y and Z, that something will go wrong – once I have something concrete, I’ll let the world know. Actually, it’s more likely that I won’t be able to shut up about it.

A sure sign that I’m feeling a little better mentally is that I’ve started doing stuff again, nothing particularly exciting but it’s an improvement on staring at the walls. Internet related stuff has involved tarting the blog up a bit, currently a very bare bones layout as I haven’t decided on a colour scheme but for once, I’ve had the foresight to make everything transparent so that when I do start experimenting with colours / textures / whatever, it won’t be too much hassle to fix something I don’t like. Though, I could just leave it as is and pretend I’m going for a minimal look… ooh, the damage I could do with pastels and a hipster font!

Minor jobs have been prettying up my Twitter profile, it’s no coincidence that went all spacey after I started working on something for the main domain too but that’s something I’m not going to rush. Typically, I’ve got more ideas floating around for little side projects but it would be nice just to have something to tie it all together after oh, nearly nine years of bits and pieces here, there and everywhere.  At least the blog and the personal stuff are nicely consolidated now, even if it doesn’t matter to anybody but me.  It’s a little worrying what I could’ve actually done had I not always questioned the validity of anything I put out there and torn it down before anyone got the chance to see it but that’s something I’m trying to work on; to do things because they have value and meaning without searching for validation from others. Obviously, there’s more chance of me saying “Hello” to a stranger than this happening but a girl can dream.

Non internetty things have involved me trying to pick up knitting again; I’ve subscribed to that knitting partwork that keeps being advertised over here in the UK so we’ll see if that helps any. At the very least, it’s nice wool and a bag to put it all in but I would like to be able to feel confident enough in my ability that I can finally make myself that Amyrlin Stole-Scarf; by then, global warming will have probably reached a level rendering scarves unnecessary but I can wear the silk one then, yay! Speaking of Wheel of Time related things, I still haven’t been able to bring myself to read the final book. I’ve flicked through enough to know what happens (pretty much a dagger through my heart on every page) but knowing that once I do read it, that’s the end of twenty years; it would’ve been more but the first book I read was actually the fifth in the series, The Fires of Heaven back in 1993 when I was the grand old age of eight. Twenty years of knowing that in a year or so, there’d be another instalment, more questions answered (even if it usually was with yet more questions) and now nothing, no more reading and finding out. The relationship I’ve had with this series of books is longer than I’ve had with anyone that isn’t a blood relative and well, that’s a heavy thing, you know? It’s so strange though, usually I’ll have finished a new Wheel of Time book on the same day it’s released but this one has been sat quietly by my bedside. I’ll read it eventually but I just don’t feel like now’s the right time to do so. Stupid bloody feelings.

I also injured my back cataloguing my nail polish collection but I’ll talk about that when I show off the pictures of my organisational magnum opus. In case The Boy is reading, the injury is not a sign that I have too much nail polish, rather it indicates that the storage I currently have for it is unfit for purpose.

Bah, there’s other things too but it’s getting on for stupid o’clock and I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow – I’m hoping the torrential rain that’s been predicted holds off a little for that, if only as recompense for taking all the snow away. I miss how quiet the world is with a thick covering of snow and how everything just looks so much nicer, all the same shade of white with just little splashes of colour here and there. Ah well, all good things must come to an end…


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Jan. 11th, 2013 06:50 pm
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If there isn’t already a support group for people who think the idea of being married is great but have absolutely zero interest in putting on a dog and pony show of a wedding just to please others, I think I’m going to start one. I have no problem with weddings if that’s what people want but honestly, being badgered about it when I’ve repeatedly said that’s not what we want is really starting to grate on my nerves in a “trying to make our day all about you is why we wouldn’t want you there” kinda way. The Boy said he’d be happier turning up at a registry office, signing the paperwork and going home; I don’t think I’ve ever loved him quite as much as I did hearing that. We’re not even in the same effing country yet but I’m supposed to be swooning over meringue dresses and stationary – SOD OFF.


(Possible proper post later but for now, RAGE!)

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